Waiting...

Every night before I tuck my son into bed, we say a prayer. Lately, our prayers have gone something like this:

"Dear God, Thank you for today. Thank you for being able to spend another day with Grammy. We pray that she will rest peacefully tonight and that she will get to go to Heaven soon. In Jesus' Name, Amen"

Though it is very difficult to understand God's timing and plan in all of this, we are reassured in knowing that He does have a plan and a great purpose for all of us through this pain and heartache. A few months ago, my mom gave me a CD by Jonny Diaz. I was listening to it the other day and one of the songs really spoke to our situation. It was like God was speaking right to me. Here are the lyrics.

Waiting Room by Jonny Diaz

Here in this waiting room yearning for You to say go
And though I’m convinced that a yes would be best
This time You’re telling me no

It’s not that I don’t have an answer
It’s just not the one that I’d like
But through this time Lord I must keep in mind
You’re always wiser than I

You have a much better purpose
And You have a far greater plan
And You have a bigger perspective
Cause You hold this world in your hands

The things that I seek are from You
Like the strong healing touch of your hand
But when You say no help me trust even though
There’s a reason I can’t understand

When that miracle comes cause Your answer is yes
I will praise you for all of my days
But when Your wisdom declares that a no is best
I will praise You just the same